The other day after some of our photos and videos went corrupt for no apparent reason, I began going through and reorganizing our pictures and videos. I had them all over the place and couldn’t tell which ones we lost and which were ok. I even had some duplicates. Once I reorganized them, I caught hubby and myself looking at them. Some I hadn’t seen or realized he took and some I took that he hadn’t seen.
He came across a video of Buggy having a major meltdown in the car from several years ago and asked me about it. I didn’t even have to look at the video, I knew exactly which video he was talking about, where we were, what happened that triggered it and why he wasn’t there for it. It all came rushing back to me so clearly as though it was yesterday. Buggy and Princess saw the video as well since they were within earshot and since they are nosey kiddos they stopped to watch. 
Buggy immediately recalled the situation. And then this conversation immediately ensued without a word from either hubby or I.
“Boy that was a really bad meltdown huh mama?” – Buggy
“Yes, baby it was, but you’re not like that anymore are you?” – Mommy
“Mommy, can you get rid of that video?” – Princess
And just as I was about to say something, Buggy puts his hand on his sister’s shoulder and interrupted with this: “It’s ok sister, I’m not like that anymore. ”
Then he turned to me and said, “I’m a big kid now mama. I’m sorry I got so angry in the car when I wanted a smoothie”
What? Did he really just recall that meltdown and why it happened from FOUR years ago? It always appeared to us as though he would go in the rage of a meltdown and not even remember it happened but now he can recall the entire situation?
“I know now I can’t have the smoothies at HEB and it’s ok” – Buggy.
I’ll admit the video was hard to watch. Heartbreaking to see him like that. I hardly even remember those times till something like this brings it all back but how enlightening it was to hear Buggy’s take on it all. To hear his side, in his own words. To hear him say that he’s not like that any more. To realize it upset his sister and to try to calm her fears/concerns. In some way I’m glad we came across that video all of us together so all of us together could stand back and see just how far Buggy has come.
He’s not the same little boy he used to be.
The doctors who told us he’d never change couldn’t have been more WRONG.
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