I know I haven’t written in awhile. I kind of took the summer off and haven’t really hopped back on to things for lots of reasons. Disney’s words, “you only have 18 summers” with your kids really hit me this summer and it hit hard. As I look back at the time that has gone by it makes me sad ’cause I feel like I missed so much of it though I know in reality I didn’t.
Then came health issues for my family and I had to put that first. Because you know, family always comes first with me as I’m sure it does with you. Time kept creeping by and I just didn’t have it in me to write. Maybe because I was enjoying just living life and not feeling like I had to capture every moment of it and write it down or type it out, or photograph it and post it on social media.
I took a break from social media too and honestly, it felt so good I didn’t know if I ever wanted to go back. Yes, I’m back on social media because I’m a blogger and that’s where work is. That’s part of the job. I know that. And that’s ok but maybe now I have a better understanding of boundaries, of time restrictions. If I post now, I post with intention not just to get something up on my social media sites whatever it may be. If I write it’s because I have something to say not just because I need to get something up. Maybe I’ve been doing it wrong all along. I’ve been listening to the people who say you need to have this number of followers, this number of readers, this many likes per post, you have to post this often and use this many hashtags.
I’ve been listening to the wrong things, the wrong voices. I need to be listening to me, to my heart, to my head, and to my body.
Life kind of threw a curve ball at me I wasn’t ready for. Actually, it threw a couple at me. One has to do with a family member I love with all my heart who is facing a very difficult health path. Prayers always welcome and needed. And then it was me who got some rather eye-opening health news. Here I thought I was doing pretty well at taking care of myself. Well, apparently not.
But the one thing I did find out is that I need to take care of me. I need to control the things I can control and let go of the things that I can not. I need to take the time I need for me even if that means I have to tell everyone else they have to wait. I know I’ve said it before but now if I want to be around for my kids and my family, I HAVE to put me first. I have to stop trying to take on everything. I have to teach myself it’s ok to say no and that not everything has to be done right now. I need to get myself out from in front of the computer and move. I need to feel the sun on my skin, the breeze on my face.
I don’t know if I’m writing this for you or for me? Maybe I just need to hear myself say it all. Maybe I just need to be able to come back to this post and remind myself it’s ok to say no, to take time for myself. Or maybe I’m writing this for you. Maybe it’s words you need to hear too.
I’ve taken some time to re-focus on my family and on me and the things that I love, the things that make me happy.
Are you doing the same? If not, I encourage you to. I’m not saying you need to lose weight to get healthy or stop posting your life on social media. I’m not saying that at all. I just want you to take some time, however, you choose to do it, to let your mind be clear, to think with your heart and mind and give yourself some time to breathe. We all get so caught up in life we forget to live it, to enjoy it.
I want you to enjoy life. I want to enjoy life. Let’s do it together.